I Think it's Finally Time

Today for the first time I trully accepted that I'm ready to move on and start dating. Don't get me wrong I had been on a few dates over the last year. Some of them were really nice, and some of them were really horrible. I think the worst one was when the guy hit me in the head with a cue ball.

Anyway I'm digressing. For a long time I was having issues moving on because I didn't want to dump my emotional baggage on anyone else. And I know everyone has issues they have to deal with, but let's face is it really fair to subject another person to the emotional rollar coaster ride that you are taking when you are going through a divorce. How long with that relationship really last?

But now that the divorce is finalized, the apartment is my name only, all jim's crap is finally out of the apartment (it only took about a year). I made the trip down to DMV and now all I have to is wait for my new driver's license in the mail. I tried to go to the social security office first but apparently since divorce papers don't have dates of birth I need to go back with my driver's license in my maiden name. I hate bureacrats, I think that is so ridulous. So as soon as I get my driver's license in the mail I'll go down there. After that all I have to do is change my credit cards and I'll be totally done. I had no idea how freeing this whole experience has been.

For awhile i've been trying to "date" but I really don't think I was mentally allowing myself to be emotional ready. Back in the summer I went on match.com, but I've since removed myself. I went on one or two dates but it seems that site is only for perverts and psychos. Recently I joined e-harmony and they seem more normal there, and I've met one or two decent guys. But the biggest step, that made me realize I was finally ready to move on was today when I signed up for one singles happy hour parties. I had been putting it off for while. You know when you sign up for one of those meat market parties you are finally ready to move on.