March 30, 2007
Roadhouse Blues
ohh ohh ohh you don't have to go ohh ohhh ok he keeps going ahh ahhh all those tears I cried... I guess he's a little love sick... I read the letter you wrote... I can't let you go... Yeah he's a love sick puppy dog... Ohh baby please don't go... ohhh Ohh... You lead to my soul... Oh no anytime a dude is singing about his soul it's never a good thing... ohh ohh ohhh you don't have to go... Baby I still love you so...
She loves you ya ya ya... You think you lost your love... It's you she's thinking of... She's loves you and you know you should be glad... Good a happy love song... I love those... She loves you ya ya ya... It's only fair... I love the beatles... I can't figure out why this station never plays it on my regular station...
You it would be untrue if I were to say to you we couldn't get much higher... I can't believe they wouldn't let them back on the Ed Sulivan show because they said higher... That's so ridulous... It's like it was a communist state.... I love long guitar riffs... This is one of my favorite doors songs... Maybe it's because it got them in so much trouble...
Well east coast girls are really hip... I can't disagree... I wish they all could be california girls... West coast has the sunshine... Palm tree in the sand... I wonder if I should visit california... I bet surfer dudes are hot... hopefully secretly smart too...
hmmm I steal the rhymthm well you can spoonman... I love this song... but it is a little weird... but then who am I to talk... All my friends are brown and red... Spoonman... Come together with your hands... Save me... Come on... Come on... Spoonman... Come on knock it off... Come on knock it off... Save me... I think this song is so cool probably because it's weird.
It getting to the point where I don't know anymore... Hurts so bad I must cry out loud... You make it hard... This poor guy... He sounds so sad... I'm yours you are mine... You make it hard... I guess these things are never easy... You are what you are... At least he can accept her the way she is... You make it hard...
Not a Cloud in the Sky
From that tree I can't see the water... but I did walk along the water before and after... Today was one of those perfect days with a totally clear sky with only a handful of clouds in the sky... What was most beautiful to me was that along the horizon was this light pinkish glow... It was the the perfect compliment to the blue sky and ocean.... And the ocean was this beautiful ocean blue... I don't remember the last time I saw the ocean here such a light blue shade... The swans looked so peaceful and serene napping on the beach... I felt bad I think I woke them when I strolled past them...
To me this was the first really perfect Spring day... I know we had warmer days but today the ocean just looked so beautiful and peaceful... It was one of those days that you wished that you had a sailboat and nothing to do but lounge around on the boat... Oh and didn't suffer from seasickness... I think they have pills for that right... Or I could just get a boat that's big enough that I don't get seasick on... Like a yacht... Hey if I'm gonna daydream I should dream big, right?
Life the Universe and Everything...
What was the point of this blog, again? Ahhh yes, life and funny it is sometimes... Well, it's true it is... Sometimes things change different from the way we plan... I guess at the end of the day everyone makes mistakes sometimes... But they are worth it if we learn something from them... Have I learned from all my mistakes, no nobody learns from every mistake they make... I guess it's important that we learn from the big ones... Mistakes can't be corrected, sometimes we just gotta face that we made them...
Maybe the hardest part about mistakes is when have accept that they have effected others, and we feel guilty... And rather than face our mistakes and what the reality may be we keep making the same mistakes out of fear... I guess because it's easier... And it becomes like riding the teacups over and over again... After awhile all you have to show for it is a dizzy head and a quesy stomach...
March 29, 2007
You Never Can Tell
But I can't seem to think about a topic... And now all I'm writing about is finding about a topic for my blog... It's become like a Seinfeld episode... There's just no point to all the dribble... But of course that was what was most interesting about Seinfeld... Of course there were also a lot of people that couldn't stand Seinfeld... Which by the way I could never understand... I thought the show was hysterically funny... Of course most of the people who I know or knew that didn't like the show were a bunch of cynical new yorkers... Which is exactly who the show made fun of... Maybe they just didn't like what the show showed them in themselves...
Yes I did just pick the blog title now...The song came on and I thought the title was appropriate... Let's face it you can never can tell what any of my blogs are gonna be about beforehand... Hey I never know myself so how would you know... And besides how can you go wrong with Chuck Berry... I think I shall end here before it becomes the never ending blog... I don't think I ever watched the whole movie... I just couldn't get into it... I thought the big flying thing was weird... Am I thinking of the right movie? Like you can answer me out there in internet la la land.
March 28, 2007
Hey Ohh Let's Go
On the day I was born the nurses joined around... head nurse said leave this one alone... Bad to the bone... I remember this song from alvin and the chipmunks... I don't remember much from the video but I remember it was hysterically funny... At least to a six or seven year old... It's funny how much I learned about music from them... Make a rich woman beg...old woman blush... yours and yours alone... bad to the bone... When I walk the streets kings and queens step aside... What I see I make my own... Bad to the bone... Bad to the bone
Cool stoner song... There must be some kinda way outta here said the jumper to the thief... Hey No reason to get excited... There are many among us... Ok this song is starting to make sense to me, that's a little scary especially considering I'm not stoned... I think I've been listening to it too much... hee hee hee I'm so bad... Along the watchtower... Princes kept the view... Ok it's starting to not make sense again... Along the watchtower...
Hey Yeah stop what you are doing... Hey Yeah I don't know what it is I want... Communication Breakdown... I love Led Zeppelin but I never realized before how screechy they can be at times... I wanna Hold you in my arms... Communication breakdown... Why is it anytime a dude's not getting sex it's a communication breakdown... I think it's the only time in their minds there's a communication breakdown... Hee Hee Hee I'm so bad... Just a little bit, I can't take it... Give it to me... Just a little bit... Hey yeah... come on...
When I find myself in times of trouble mother mary finds me .... Let it be... Let it be... Whisper words of wisdom... Nothing beats the beatles... Let it be... I always found a lot their songs that I really liked spoke a deeper meaning... Let it be... whisper words of wisdom
What will you do when you get lonely and nobody is waiting by your side... It's just your foolish pride... You got me on my knees... I guess we can say you don't have any of that... You've turned me upside... Darling won't ease my worries now... Before I finally go insane... Layla... Got me on my knees... By the way I always wondered what kinda name is Layla... Who names their child Layla... It's like I was layin' when I had you... So why not name you that... I love songs with long guitar riffs... It gives me lots of time to come up with crap and low pressure... the witty comments aren't hard... it's coming up with them quickly that's the problem...
Sitting on park bench...something about little girls... snot running down his nose... drying in the cold sun... Aqualung... Feeling a dead duck... I've never really listened to the lyrics before, I'm sorry that's just disgusting... Goes down to the park and warms his feet... Did I just hear something about tea? Do you still remember December's foggy freeze... Deep sea diver sounds... This song is just strange... I always thought that the music sounded cool but I never really listened to the lyrics... It's kinda funny how much I learn about the lyrics after playing this game... dee dee dee... dee dee dee... aqualung my friend... you poor old sod... what the hell is a sod... Sitting on a park bench eying little girls with bad intent... Aqualung
Here's an appropriate song to end with... If I leave here tomorrow would you still remember me... I must be traveling on now... There's too many places I gotta see... If stay here with you... Things couldn't be the same... Cause I'm as free as bird... And this bird you cannot change... Well I guess it is hard to change a bird... How would you change a bird... If someone wants to fly free you really can't force them to stay down... I guess you could clip your wings... but what's so beautiful about most birds is their flight... You would be taking what's most beautiful about them... Free as a bird now... And a bird you cannot change... I can't change... He probably could change... but doesn't want to... You have to wanna change... You never force a person to change... they have to want it on their own... And they probably would in time normally... but if you try to force them to... All you are gonna get is them resisting you more... long guitar riffs are so cool... I used to not like them but they've really grown on me... That's funny I used to swear I'd never love long guitar riffs... I guess the expression everything changes with time has some truth to it... Though I must admit the long riffs are more fun when I play this game... I'm weird I know...
Magic Carpet Ride
To me there's nothing like the feeling when you know that Spring has sprung. There's nothing like those first nice warm days after the long frozen winter. Yesterday was so beautiful I decided to go check out the beach for the first time this year. No I didn't go in the water, I'm not like one of those polar bears that goes swimming in the wintertime. In fact, I didn't even go on the sand...I really didn't want to get the sand in my shoes. I really wasn't wearing the right type of shoes for a spontaneous beach randevous. Anyway, this was the earliest in the season I've ever visited the beach. Surrounding the end of the beach was this bamboo fence. It was something I've never seen before...I guess the point was to prevent beach erosion or something like that.
All I really did was walk once around the concrete path but it was still pretty cool to be at the beach and smell the salty seawater. At both ends of the path there's no sand and there's a place to watch the waves crash up against the rocks. I really don't get it, but I find something unexplainably soothing about watching the waves hit the rocks. Maybe it's because it's so natural or maybe it's as simple liking the sound the waves make when the water crashes.
March 27, 2007
Right Where I Belong
And of course what had inspired me to suddenly do something that I didn't want to do, wanted to put off doing or just plain scared to do varied. Sometimes it was something someone else did, and I said enough is enough. Like when I decided to quit my first full-time job, my supervisor told me I needed to grow some balls...two weeks later I decided to quit for a job I knew was worse. And it wasn't something that I took lightly, but at the time it felt like it was something that I had to do. It just felt like I was jumping off a diving board...there was just no other direction to go. It's very different from when you are being shoved between a rock and a hard place. Between a rock and hard place you'll just stay there rather than make a decision, at least in my own experiences.
Anyway I've gotten totally off the subject now... Another time was when I wanted to finish college. I overloaded on classes because I knew if I didn't finish that term I would just quit. The ironic thing was I think that might have been the highest term gpa I ever had. Hmmm let me see if I could think of anything else... Well this is kinda silly but there was the time I was hanging out at Mark's house with a bunch of friends... That idiot Jeremy was there... He was one of those idiots that after seeing a movie would explain every reason possible why it could never happen in real life... Anyway, we were bored and playing this silly game where you had clues and you had to guess who it was... And this turn the person was me and I said something that it made really obvious... So Jeremy decided it was cute to call me a bitch... Back then I was a lot more tempermental then I am now. After all I was only 17, so I spilled my soda all over him. Hey he was lucky that I didn't kick him in the nuts. Looking back, I guess at the time I was so mad I didn't think before I reacted. But I definetly learned from my experiences and I know now that I have enough control over my temper that I would never react like that.
It's weird how you learn from the little things that happen to you in life. What I've definetly learned through my experiences is that it's never wise to do something blindly without thinking about what you are doing first. Now I'm glad I made some rash decisions in my past experiences, I've learned what the reprussions are. And from that I've learned how to better control my reactions...
Like Coke...Classic is Just Better
Cool we'll start off with a stoner song... I guess a lot classic rock songs would be, huh? Keep your eyes on road, your hands upon the wheel...Duh, What else would you do? Just when the people like to go down slow...Let roll baby roll, all night long... Isn't that the only way to roll? I'm so bad... Action Lady, Give up your vows... Save our City Woke up this morning and got myself a beer... That's always a great way to start a morning (scarastic eye roll)
Ok the boss, later classic rock, Got a wife and kids in baltimore jack. went for a ride and never went back... Great a dead beat dad... They are always highly respectable (another scarastic eye roll) We took what we had... Everone's got a hungry heart... Lay down your money... Everyone needs a place to rest... i should hope so... Notice he changed the subject from being a dead beat dad... that was probably a wise decision... Everybody's got a hungry heart...
Standing in the rain with his head hung low, couldn't get a ticket...I've always loved this song...He heard one guitar, blew him away... Beat up six string in a second hand store... I guess this song must have inspired a lot of dudes to go learn how to play the guitar... Be a Juke Box Hero... I used to have a toy guitar as a child... I was terrible... I was tone deaf even on that... And I think I broke the strings within a week... My mom always complained I was too rough on my toys... Juke box hero...Got stars in his eyes... Come alive tonight. You gotta keep a rockin' just can't stop... Be a juke box hero... Got stars in eyes... Hey at least he's going after his dreams... Juke box hero
American Woman gonna mess your mind, ok we get the point you don't need to sing five times... hmmm hmm hmmm hmmm ooh hmmm hmmm American woman stay away from me, Let me be don't be hanging around the door... Sounds like you are secretly pretty into her, huh? American woman get away from me.. Don't want to see your shadow no more... Sparkle someone else's eyes... hmmm hmmm hmmm American woman I said get away... Sparkle someone else's eyes... Let me be... Damn he seems to be rambling a lot about this woman... Doesn't he realize he's stroking her ego... I'm gonna leave goodbye
Is the real life...Is just fantasy caught in reality... Look up to the skies and see... I'm easy come easy go... Anywhere the wind goes doesn't really matter to me... I remember this song from the scene in Wayne's World... that scene was so funny... I used to love that movie and the skit on Saturday Night Live... Ahhh when the show was actually good... He's aching all the time... Goodbye everybody... Got to leave you all behind and fade through... I just want to die... Ok this song is officially depressing now... who wants to listen someone singing about dying... Galieo? what does he have to do with this song... I think they are just throwing anything in now to throw off their listeners... I guess like what I do with my readers... that's cool I can respect that... You think you can love me and leave me to die... Just got to get right out of here...Nothing really matters... Anyone can see.. Nothing really matters to me...
Cool more steppenwolf... left the motor running heading out on the highway... whatever comes our way... I remember this was Al Bundy's song... He would get mad go out on his bike and they would play this song... Born to be wild... Born to be wild... Get your motor running head out on the highway... Get the world in a loving embrace... True nature's child... I never wanna die... Born to be wild...
Sunshine of Your Love
Train Kept A Rollin'
The two types of birds are definetly very different to me. The swans seem very peaceful and for the most part seem to get along with each other. On the other hand the gulls seem to do nothing but fight and bicker with each other. And the swans even though the flock seems to stick together, within the flock though they keep to sets of two. The gulls don't do that within the flock they are scattered. I wonder if the swans mate for life, they seem to get along too well for a lifetime mate. Hee Hee Hee Aren't I funny? But in all seriousness they seem to get along pretty well. A couple of the swans were swimming together and drinking water. And it was just rather sweet. They seem to spend all their time together...and be able to get along...It seems weird most people assume that the more time two indivuals spend together the more they will fight... Maybe there's something that we can learn for the birds... It could be that's there is something to the expression it's all for the birds....
March 26, 2007
Whipping Post
March 23, 2007
Shooting Star
When You Wish Upon a Star
You are So Beautiful
Anyway, let me not continue getting sidetracked, and get back to the purpose of the blog. As you probably noticed from reading my previous blogs I've lately become totally immersed in the beauty of the ocean. To me the ocean's inner beauty is it's reflection of the world around it. Today I noticed how much the color of the ocean was directly impacted by the clouds in the sky. Where the clouds were a darker more sedate gray so was the ocean. And where the clouds were lighter, an almost blue-gray so was the ocean. Along the horizon where there was a pinkish glow there was also this beautiful pinkish glow to the water.
From what I noticed the ocean has a certain texture, if you can call that. When the sun is out and shining the ocean has this glittery effect to it. When the sun is hiding behind the clouds the water has the opposite effect. I'm not sure I can describe it words, it has this indescrible beauty to it. It kind a reminds me of a Monet painting for some reason. And I can't quite explain why I feel that way. I think it's because of the way it has the shimmer to it that can't quite be explained in words. That the only way you possibly can duplicate it would be as a painting.
Easy Like Sunday Morning
I guess I just can't help myself. There's just something about them that I find absolutely fascinating. Maybe I'll never be able to fully explain it. I love watching them spread their wings, there's just something about it that draws me in. They just seem like such happy creatures, like there were two swans in the water necking...I wonder if that's where the term came from. I've always seen them in sets of two. There was another set there they were eating the dried seaweed along the beach. It was kinda sweet, I wonder if they mate for life. I think there are lot of bird species that do. It's kinda sweet to watch animals in nature when they are happy in love. Maybe it gaves me hope that humans can do it to. I think we just make things to complicated sometimes.
March 22, 2007
The Impression that I get
Besides one day last week I when I was outside the tide was low in late morning and now this week the tide was low more towards the later afternoon...I just find it curious what affects it...because it seemed this morning the tide seemed all the way out...
I don't quite lately but lately I've been finding myself more drawn to the beach...especially watching the water...Lately I've been very fascinated by watching the water...There's something unexplainably hypnotic about it...I'm not sure I can quite explain it...I love listening to the water during high tide make it's loud swooshy noise agains the rocks...During low tide I love watching how the water leaves it's imprint on the sand as it retreats...And I love watching how the color of the ocean mysteriously changes...I love how it reflects the world around it...It's almost as if it has a life of it's own...Like this morning the sky was a smoky color almost like a slate gray and so was the water...In a unique way it was very beautiful...There was this mysterious glow to it...It was like the opposite of a glitter, but it wasn't at all dull...Later on after the sun came shining the water was a bright blue and had this very shimmery shiny glow to it...Both sides are beautiful... It's just a question of taking the time to stop and appreciate the many different facets of nature's beauty...
Man on the Moon
Tunnel of Love
I know you are gonna ask how realistic is the show...I know I ask that question from time to time...and I watch it...Some of it is totally unrealistic to a New York single woman's life...But what is to a large degree realistic are the characters. A lot of the stuff they deal with is believe it or not often times pretty accurate. During last night's episode I related to two of the characters for two different but related issues. I guess should give some background info on these characters...
Carrie who's the main character...I say that because her character does all the narrations...has issues getting over her fears dating because she had been burned so much by her on again off again boyfriend, Big. I guess I relate to her because I to have been dealing with issues getting ready to open up to someone. Lets face it's hard for anyone to open up after a break-up, after all we are only human. I guess the biggest step is admitting and doing something to work on it. I think this is an issue that any adult, man or woman has to deal with. Because let's face it unless you've been living as a total hermit everyone has relationship crap that they have been through.
On the other Miranda's issue is giving up her stout independence. During this episode she's having corrective vision surgery and she's having issue getting help from her boyfriend Steve. I think any modern independent woman can relate to this. I think in our society there is now the uber-independent woman that can't handle relying on a man for anything. Yes this is extreme, but I guess it's because many women are afraid of looking like they depend on a man. You know sorta like a leech.
And to certain extent I can relate to both of these issues. For a long time I couldn't understand why men found me so intimating. Yes women can tell when men find us intimating...they get that deer in headlights kinda look. But after seeing last night's Sex and the City episode I guess I can understand why. I know this may sound hard to believe but I don't want to be intimating...And I don't want to feel this way about relationships. Maybe it's just my internal defense mechanism. I know I'm like the little kid that's taken kicking and screaming onto the rollar coaster. Perhaps it's just time to jump on without spending so much time thinking about it. Because after all if that little kid would have deliberated all day they never would have gone on. And most of the time once they get on they have a blast. In fact they usually race right back on the ride to go back on again. Just one question, Can I leave my eyes closed? That's at least how I used ride coasters...
March 21, 2007
Searching for my Last Shaker of Salt
Yeah, all this quiet on new year's day...it's underway...I want to be with you night and day... nothing changes on new year's day...I don't know if I agree with that...I think a lot changes on New Year's day...under a blood red sky...crowd gathers...sounds to me like a lot is changing...We can break thru...I will begin again...but nothing changes...dude do you know what you are talking about?...probably not...hee hee hee... i will be with you again
I am the entertainer I know just where I stand...I am your champion...I won't be here in another year if I don't stay on the charts...ahh it's kinda funny to hear Billy Joel worrying about fans... Something about it is ironic...I don't remember faces...I don't remember names...After awhile it all becomes the same...Got to stay in line...Bills to be...Or is it lawsuits to pay off...It's been on the radio...took me years to write...I am the entertainer...the idol of my age...Someone has an ego...Get put in the discount rack like a dollar can of beans...I am the entertainer...
Winter's day...deep and dark december...gazing from my window...I am a rock...I am an island...I guess this is supposed to be one of those songs with a hidden deeper meaning...here we go...friendship causes pain..don't talk of love...it's sleeping in my memory...won't disturb it's slumber...ohhh no this dude has a problem he refuses to deal with it...that's not healthy...safe within my womb...I guess we all do it from time to time...an island never cries...
oooh mmmm mmmm Mama take this badge off of me I can't use it any more...Knocking on Heaven's door...Knocking on heaven's door...ok that's like the fifth time we get the point...Mama put my guns in the ground... I can't shoot them anymore... Long black cloud is coming down... Wow I never really listened to how depressing this song is
I've been looking for someone...out looking for something to ease the pain...who can you turn to.. hmmm sounds like this guy is asking for a rebound...I need somebody...everybody needs somebody...I guess he expects the body to be warm too...I'm so bad...Doesn't take long to realize it ain't worth fighting for...I need somebody...Somebody like you...doesn't take much to figure out what he's after huh? Another night...it's the distance that keeps us sane...we do it all again...
I saw a werewolf with a chinese food menu in his hand...aah ooh...werewolves of london... aah ooh... hear him howling around your kitchen door you better let him aah ooh...this song is so silly... i love it...of course i'm usually pretty silly...there's worse things to be... hairy gent... overheard in mayfair...I'd like to meet his tailor...ahh oohh....ahhh ooohh...Doing the werewolves of london...saw a werewolf drinking a pina colada at trader nicks...ahhh oooh
I Don't Want to Miss A Thing
Who Do You Love?
March 20, 2007
This color is making my eyes hurt...maybe I should stop trying to use all the colors some of them are even worse...let me find something better
525,600 minutes...how do you measure a year...midnights...sunsets...cups of coffee... i love the song but the story is so depressing...I never saw the play but the movie...just wow...Seasons of Love...525,600...journeys to plan...never thought of a minute as a journey...that's puts life at a whole new perspective...What about love?...What about Love? Seasons of Love
Hmmm this color isn't any better...I must switch again...
What's got me so jumpy? Why can't you sit still? Every time I touch you you get hot...unskippy bop...I know what's with poison? Hey I was 12 when they came out and I used to have a crush on Brett Michaels...I know he's cool, but his band was cheezy...I've said it before and I'll say it again...if he was the band from guns and roses they'd still be around...I love guns n' roses...but Axel is such a dirtbag...Blows me away...all night and day...hey at least the color is easier to read...unskinny all night and day...Hey their other songs are much cooler, give a girl a break...
Whoa...darling you've got to let me know should I stay or should I go...It's always tease tease tease you're happy when i'm on my knees...Wow that really rhymes...If I stay it would be double...This indecision is bugging...If you don't want me set me free...Dude the only one that can set you free is yourself...If you don't want her crap leave...I hate to break it to you but you are placating her and allowing her to fuck with you...Maybe I'm being over harsh...Should I stay or should I go...if I leave there will be trouble...if I stay there will be double...
it's alright to tell me that you think about me...Your pictures are falling down...The steps I retrace...He sounds a little mad at himself...she screwed the master plan...maybe at her...or maybe he's just mad to be mad...I'll smile and you'll wave and pretend it's ok...I guess this is growing up...yea dude it's definetly part of growing up welcome to the real world.
When you wish upon a star it makes no difference who are anything your heart desires will come to you...I used to love this song as a child...I think they used to play it on Sunday nights when they had a Wonderful world of Disney. Or maybe it was from one the old disney movies...I don't think it was Peter Pan...maybe it was Pinnochio...Fate is kind she brings who those who know sweet fulliment...To be young and be able to dream like a little child...Sometimes I miss that...When your dreams come true...
Wise men say only fools rush in but I can't help falling in love with you...Shall stay would it be a sin if i can't help falling in love with you...like a river flows surely to the sea...I always loved this song...call me a sentimental fool...Take my whole life too...for I can't help falling love with you...or just a hopeless romantic...but what really is the difference...isn't it just a nicer way of saying it...So it goes somethings were meant to be...take my hand...my whole life too...for I can't help falling in love with you...when you think about it...it really is a sweet message...I hate to admit but the song gives me a warm fuzzy spot...oh god i'm becoming so sappy as i'm getting older.
More Than Just a Number
I guess what always struck me about how much you talk about from such a young age. Like back in high school my friends and I would casually make jokes about it even though most of the gang hadn't had sex...Hey we were fifteen and sixteen...One of the guys would flip me upside down and make 69 jokes...And also bug me if I would do a handstand to my boyfriend's head. I'm still upset to the day that I never was coordinated enough in high school gym class to learn how to a handstand...I haven't tried in years, maybe I should try again...
Hmmm I guess this blog went a little off course...maybe I should have thought about which direction I was going to head first...I guess the point was supposed to be how wonderful 69 can be. Although if there's a significant difference in height or weight the position can become a bit of challenge...Put them together and you have chaos...Just another reason for me to wish I was taller...hmmm I wonder if I can get a hold of those pills that Alice took...They certainly would come in handy at certain times...And yes I would use them for uses other than sexual ones...They would be useful for getting things off high shelves oh and changing light bulbs...And I guess if I ever wanted to play basketball.
What it takes
March 19, 2007
Hello Dolly
A child arrived just the other way...learned to walk...I'm gonna be like you...when are coming home dad...Not today i got a lot do...I'm gonna be like him...cat's in the cradle...I've always said this song is totally about karma...Came from college...Can you sit for awhile...Borrow the car keys...See Ya later...Yup definetly karma...He wants a relationship with son when it's already too late...I wonder if this song is about his relationship with his dad or his relationship with his son...from the way the lyrics are written it seems to be a relationship with his son...
Walk away...If you want to...if you need to...you can run but never hide...There's a magic running thru your soul...Whatever you do I'll be two steps behind...It only takes a minute...to turn around...Ummm doesn't sound like the best way to approach a woman, dude even with best of intentions you'll look like a stalker... I'll be there remind you...This guy is trying too hard to make stalking sound sweet...try as hard as you want...it's still not sweet...I can't believe when I was younger I thought this song had a sweet message...This just shows how screwed up your thought process is in high school...Two Steps Behind
The lights go down the jungle is your head...Hello...Hello...At a place called veritgo...give me something you can feel...They rock and roll...This song is starting to give me verigo, with the way it jumps all over the place...Give me something you can feel...Shouldn't it be something that I can feel...Damn it's bad when I'm correcting someone's grammer. I don't exactly speak proper english. At a place called vertigo. Yeah Yeah Yeah
I am just a poor boy...for a pocket full of mumbles...what are mumbles...maybe he's saying marbles...but that sounds like a pretty stupid thing to...Asking only working wages...now talk about about settling...So lonesome I took some comfort there...someone went to a hooker...what happened to free love? New York aren't bleeding me...And I thought I hated winter...In the clearing stands a boxer...Finally the boxer comes into the song...it took forever...
Don't look back...it's been too long since I felt this way...it took long realize...see where I am...I'm turning around Ok we get the point, you are turning around...but then why say don't look back? I see myself in a brand new way...the sun is shining...Well at least it's finally a happy song about love, some of these songs about love are just too over the top
I keep a close watch on this heart of mine...for this heart of mine...because you're mine...I walk the line...Very easy to be true...I'm a fool for you...I walk the line...I can't decide whether this poor guy is screwed up or if it's sweet...ohhh You got a way to keep me on your side...Because your mine...I can't figure out whether or not it's a good thing or not...
Walk along the river...sweet lullaby...come on mister bluebird...Your my blue sky...Turned your love my...I love another happy love song...It's kinda weird to have a bluesy country band to be playing a happy love song...I guess I'm being a little biased here...I love this guitar rift...good old sunday morning...bells ringing everywhere...won't be long till i'll be there...That's kinda sweet.
Have you ever...
Damn this dude sounds like he's in pain...I feel bad for him. It's sometimes hard to believe that one person could cause someone that much pain. In the song you can totally feel that the woman causes him physical pain. Something like that is hard to imagine unless you've experienced it yourself. I wonder if she can feel the pain he feels, that's even freakier I think...You know kinda like a sympathy pain. That stuff is kinda freaky, but I've heard of things like that happening. When I hear about stuff like that it makes me wonder if there really is a such thing as soul mates.
The Load-Out
March 16, 2007
Karma Chameleon
In this case the song came on, and I thought it would be a good opporunity to write a blog about karma. I've always wanted to but never did. I figured now was as good a time as any. Maybe what they say about inspiration striking at a moment's notice is true. Anyway I'm getting sidetracked.
I've always said that karma's a bitch. Actually come to think of it, I've always said karma is a boomerang. Whatever you do is gonna come right back to you. So if you lead a good life and do good things, good things will happen to you. And if you do bad things it's gonna come back and bite you in the ass. Actually a boomerang can' t bite, so I guess it'll just knock you down on your ass. But a bommerang coming by and knocking you down at like 100 miles per hour is gonna hurt. I guess for the most part I do live a good life, but like most people there have done acouple of things in my life that I'm not particularily proud of. On those occassions I probably could have conducted myself in a better manner. Maybe now that I'm aware of it I can make an effort to that. And I can hope others in my life do the same. After all at the end of the day you can't control other people. If someone wants to change it has to come from their own motivation.
March 15, 2007
Break on Through to the Other Side
Blinded by the light, Motor in the night...Hmmm that's unusual there aren't too many songs where the title is the first thing you hear...They must be as lazy as me, hee hee hee. Rubbed off...Motor in the night...That doesn't sound too cool. Ok I've had enough of this song, lets skip to the next one.
Ewww we'll skip this one too...who's we...ok I don't know this one and she's scheechy another bites the dust. Ok the stones we'll go with this...Angie Angie When will all those Clouds all disappear...Angie...Angie...I love this song...but he reminds me of edgar allen poe here the way he keeps repeating the name.. The Raven...but what was the name he kept repeating...shit I can't remember...oh well...Angie Angie...When will it lead us from here. Oh Angie don't you weep... The sadness in your eyes...Oh angie I still love you...If it was anyone other than Mick Jagger I would really sorry for him. Ok I wouldn't feel sorry for Steven Tyler either. What every album it's another woman that they are bemoaning over.
Cool more rockers...Back 1955 man didn't know about the rock and roll show...I love this song but he sings too fast for me to type the words... Let there be rock...Let there be rock and roll. And it came to pass and rock and roll was born... What would we do without rock music? Seriously I can't imagine no rock music, that would really fucking suck. Something about a decibal rocking band, That's actually a pretty big word for AC/DC.
Open the door turn on the light we are gonna have a party tonight...Wouldn't a party be more fun with the lights out. For a Rocker, For a Rocker, For a Rocker...Don't have to change don't have to be sweet...Don't have to feed them...I don't know about you but you couldn't pay me to go to this horrible party...I don't want to argue don't want to fight but there definetly will be a party tonight...It sounds like someone is asking to sleep on the couch...hee hee...hee...
Well i won't back down, no i won't back down. Stand me up at the gates of hell but I won't back down...I keep this world from dragging me down...I won't back down... There ain't any easy way out. I won't back down...I know what's right...Well good for him for sticking to what he believes in. I'll stand my ground and I won't back down. That's the problem that most people have...they do back down.
Daydream Believer
I. Personality - This goes first Duh! Personality is the most important because, well it's such a large part of you are.
- Honest and Sincere
- Trustworthy
- Faithful
- Down to Earth
- Upbeat
- Funny
- Intelligent not an Intellectual Snob
- Talkative
- A little goofy...maybe a little more than that...he should be more goofy then me
- Knows where 42 comes from ... I know I'm a geeky...ok he doesn't have to know but he should he at least not roll his eyes when I tell him
- Puts up with my bad impressions and has a few himself
- Boyish Charm
- Humble and Modest
- Can put up with my perverted sense of humor. Note: He's not an actual pervert.
II Personal Beliefs - I know this may fit under personality but I figured I would seperate it...After all it's my list and I can do what I want
- Passionate about Life
- Self Respect
- Self Confident
- High Ingrity
- Believes in freedom -- Personal and Financial
- Has goals and Dreams
- Dedicated and Ambitious
- Believes in Self Development
- Comfortable with himself
- Good Communicator
- Ability to Forgive
- He's an optimist but he's still grounded in reality
- Handles Stress with ease
- Patient
- Has control over his temper
- Loves having a high level of energy
- Understands a real man doesn't need to wear his machoness on his sleeve
- Understands the Value of money, but doesn't believe in flashing it around
- He's not an Asshole
III. In a Relationship
- Gets me
- Believes opposites attract, but similarities last
- Interdependent
- Encourages me to be a better person and better myself
- Able to express emotions
- Open minded and flexible
- Courteous and respectful
- Accepts me as I am
- Handles conflict well
- A good listener
- Romantic
- Knows how to find my warm and fuzzy side
- Likes being spoiled and spoils me in return
- He's a gentleman
- Accepts my adoptive family members...God help him with the real ones hee hee hee
IV Hmmm Random shit that didn't fit in the other three
- Good Hygene --- I think this actual belongs in the second one but I wanted it at the top of a list so I put it here.
- Understands the value of culture (art, music, theater, etc)
- Treat my family the way you want me to treat yours
- Has a spirtual side but is not religous
- Believes it's important to give back
- Believes in karma
- Somewhat of history buff, if we don't understand the past we're doomed to repeat it.
- Has a sweet tooth
- Loves to travel
- Likes to clean my messes in the kitchen. hee hee hee
- Believes that there should be places left for nature to develop
- If he can't fix something...he's man enough to find someone that can
- Can keep up with my drinking
V Optional Features
- Beach house complete with tiki bar, huge deck, jacuzzi, and outdoor pool table.
- Likes to play pool ---Is that a surprise after #1
- Likes to share sunsets with someone special ---again is that a surprise after #1.
- A vacation house along a lake wouldn't hurt either like in Maine or Vermont couldn't either.
- Appreciates the little things like feeding the ducks, shouldn't be a surprise after number 4. Besides they are so cute and fuzzy.
- A Yacht...It's a dream right, so shouldn't I go big?
- Private Movie Viewing Room...Nobody can complain when I talk during the movie or make out. hee hee heee
- Lots of closet space...So he can encourage my lingerie fetish....hee hee hee
- Is a Backdoor man....Duh!!! have you seen my ass
- Passes the BackFence Test...And no that's not another reference to my ass. It's a bar...See another time I didn't call you dumbass...but I did think about it. Hey I can't change overnight. Have patience...see it's on this list...maybe I'll learn to have some too.
- Likes kissing...I love kissing so be prepared....Would be good if he's good with his tongue for other stuff too
- Gives good massages...I admit I still have to practice mine
- Likes to make homemade pornos... I have never done it...but I've always wanted to...I guess I'm just waiting for a worthy man.
- Likes sex in the shower...oh and the jazuzzi from #1. we'll get a big fence...If someone can seek a peek who cares.
- Can handle my frisky drunk behavior
- Likes the woman to climb on top.
- Has a few cherries to pop...ooh I've never had a virgin that would be hot. Hmmm I don't think there are twenty something or thirty something virgins...I may never be able to get that one.
- Every once in awhile likes a quickie...in public
- He must do it long and slow too
- Knows how to wake me up purring and moaning
- Secure enough to buy his favorite things for wear...from Frederick's or Victoria
- Believes 69 is a lucky number
Time in a Bottle
And then there are the spots that are normally totally immersed in water that during low tide you can suddenly see the sand underneath. The sand can be seen but there's still this watery effect to it. It gives it this shimmery almost shiny glow to the sand. For some reason, it has this untamed in all it's natural beauty feeling to it.
Not to mention during low tide the life along the beach has a very different feel to it. I don't know it seems to me that the gulls fly a little differently. And certainly they are swimming in the ocean a little more eagerly. I think it's because they are looking for food, it's probably easier to find during low tide. But even further though they seem to be I would say chirping, but gulls don't really chirp, whatever it is it's certainly louder. And my friends the swans seem to napping more comfortably.
I guess the reason I find low tide so beautiful is because even though it's so quiet compared to high tide there's really so much going on below the surface. Whereas high tide's beauty is all in your face to view, low tide you have to look closely to fully appreciate.
March 14, 2007
Seasons of Love
Rock and Roll Never Forgets
Anyway, there have been certain songs that remind of certain songs or even singers that remind of things in my past. Like I associate Rain Drops Keep falling on my Head with my Grandmother because she used to sing it. And Love and Marriage because when we used to watch Married with Children when we were over her house she would sing it. Well in fact I associate anything Sinatra with her. My other grandmother is that Tisket a Tasket thing, but I can't remember any of the words. Oh and Sweet Chariot, I think that's what it's called you know that song with that really deep boom to it. And my friend Liz, it's Little Miss Can't be Wrong because in high school she used to change the words to Little Bitch Can't be Wrong about me. It used piss me off like you can't believe, but I think it might be because there's some truth to it. The can't be wrong, not the bitch part, well sometimes I'm a bitch, I am a woman after all. Hmmm let's see if I can think any others. Big Balls I think of Aaron, because he played it, and introduced me to AC/DC. God he was so much cooler back in High School. Johnny B Goode reminds me of my first boyfriend, he was always playing it on his guitar. Though I'm not really sure he was even that, we only made out a couple of times. Oh and Cream and Clapton he sorta introduced me to them. My first real boyfriend, is the song Always. It was our song, maybe it explains a few things. Oh and Wind of Change, I'm not really sure maybe it's just because we used to listen to it a lot. Oh and anything Guns N Roses, he introduced me to them. My Mom is anything Elvis, she's a fanatic. Jon and Liz again and Jon's ex-girlfriend is Ruby Soho I still remember the day back in college we spend the day driving around brooklyn and singing it in the car. We drove poor Jon nuts. Now as for times. I've already mentioned a few, but let's see if I can come up with some more. Hmmm prom night was I Swear by All for One, I remember that's the song it ended with. Electric Slide I remember the time we were dancing it in my friend's backyard. We had a lot great times at her house.
It's kinda funny but until I wrote this I didn't fully really realize how much other people have influenced my music tastes. Especially when it's something that I don't want to admit to liking. Let's see if I can list them, maybe I should get the most embarrasing ones first. My Grandmother from Dad's side gave me the ability to stomach some country music. As a New Yorker that's a tough pill to swallow, at least I still can't tolerate bluegrass. My other Grandmother gave me my love for Sinatra. As I've gotten older I've come to terms with it. My Mom was Elvis, don't tell her I pick on her relentlessly for liking him. My friend Liz influenced my love of 80's music. As you probably figured from the above paragraph Aaron influenced my love of AC/DC, and Jon Rancid. Jon also gets credit for the Chili Peppers. I hate to give Jarrod credit for anything good, but he gets credit for Clapton, Cream, and Chuck Berry. Mark gets credit for Guns N Roses, partially Nirvana and there's probably some other stuff too. He'd take credit for Aerosmith too but I loved them long before him. My last ex can get credit for Led Zeppelin. Maybe I can say it was the Lord of the Rings instead, hee hee hee. After all it was Ramble on that sold me on the fact they were cool. And the Stones and the Beatles were my mom.
Hmmm now where Billy Joel, Aerosmith, the Who and the Ramones came from? Aerosmith I heard on the radio and I just instantly loved them. I think it was the same thing with the Ramones, even though it had been years since they had been out their stuff still got a lot of play on stations. The Who I think was just an influence from the Beatles and the Stones. As far as the Allman brothers, the Kinks, and Lynyrd Skynyd I think that was mostly 104.3. The rest of the stuff I like I just think was either a direct or indirect influence of things I've already mentioned.
Bring Me to Life
I think being on Kingsboro here makes it even more beautiful to notice. And I can't believe I've never really noticed it before. Maybe I never really took the time. Anyway this morning as I going on my usual walk I noticed sultle little signs that Spring is ready to be sprung. I don't know the birds to me just seemed to have more spring in their step. The entire flock of swans was on the beach. Totally off topic, I think it's really cool how they can bend their bodies and I wish I could do that myself. It certainly would come in handy for recreational purposes. Anyway, I've gone totally off tangent. Like I said the swans were on the beach, and I don't know call me crazy but I sensed that they were more excited to be there today. Maybe it was just because there were more than 3 or 4 them there. And hanging on the beach with them were these cute little fuzzy black ducks. I never knew geese and ducks played together, but I guess they do. I've seen them before but today they seemed to be well, quacking more. And when I looked down the bay, the sailboats even though they are objects, and are still in their winter slumber just seemed more lively. I don't know there was more of air about them, like they knew they had to get ready for adventure and couldn't wait.
March 12, 2007
Passing the Time
ooh ohh got on of the town on a boat...She making for the trades on the outside...She got 80 feet of something line. I never realized before this song was about a boat before. It just shows how little you actually listen to things sometimes. When you see the southern cross for the first time...the truth you are running from may seem so small. They must be stoned, too. Writers often tend to write the truth easier when they are stoned. Hee Hee Hee.
Foxey Foxey...You know you are cute little heartbraker...Sweet little love maker (that's definetly true) Maybe my friends were right when they said I'm not down to earth. But it's just self-confidence, besides how can you be any good at something if you don't believe you are. Foxey Lady here I come. Foxey Lady. Yeah, I'm gonna take home. Is it just me, or does song make a lot of sense considering it's a Jimi Hendrix song?
Polly wants a cracker...I think she wants more though...Huh i didn't get that, gee I sound old. It's just I've never really tried to listen to the lyrics to Nirvana before. It's kinda funny how your perception of something changes after you trully listen. Don't get me wrong I still love Nirvana, and I always will. It's just that after trying trully listen to the words he's singing I look at differently. It's been happening with a lot of the songs I listen to on launchcast. Maybe I should apply it to other aspects of my life more often.
I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me, I still feel your touch in my dreams. Everytime we touch I get this feeling. Oh this chick has it bad. This song has a funny beat in between lyrics, or is just me? Alright, I guess it's just me. Your arms are my castle, your heart my sky...Huh? I think someone was trying to rhyme and failed miserablely. Because the way the human body is lined up that just doesn't work.
Raindrops are falling on my head.. guy who's feet are to big for his bed nothing seems to fit. I can't believe that I admit to liking this song, but grandmother used to sing to me when I was a kid. Call me a sentimental fool. Doesn't me my eyes would be turning red, crying isn't for me. I guess I like it because even though he's down on his luck, he still sounds so upbeat. That's gotta impress you. Because I'm free, nothing is worrying me.
Don't wanna be an american idiot...can you hear the sound of hysteria...welcome to a new kind of tension...Televison dreams of tomorrow. I'm not part of a redneck agenda...I'll second that. It's kinda funny how there are certain songs that speak or actually sing what a generation is thinking. In many ways this is one of those songs. I remember when they hit big with Dookie when I was in high school. For some reason I totally related to that album. Maybe because I was just a confused teenager.
This has a different intro then I remember...hmmm...ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh wee wee wee (i can't spell the other ones) In the jungle the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight. In the village the quiet village the lion sleeps tonight. I don't know about you but I wouldn't want to sleep in that village. There's that weird intro again. The lion sleeps tonight. Hush my darling the lion sleeps tonight...What about all the other nights, I guess it's kinda like playing russian roullette.
The Sky is Falling
Like I said earlier today, it's one of those first days that you could start to almost taste Spring in the air. I don't know if I could quite explain it, but there's definetly something that just feels different. Maybe it's just because it's one of the first days that you walk outside without your coat zippered all the way up. Or maybe it's because the sky looks less heavy, airy if you will. Is just me or does the sky look heavier in the winter, like it's being weighed down or something like that? Like today it seemed like the clouds were more disbursed, and more like streamers. Maybe that's why the sky seemed less weighed down today.
What I loved the most about today though was that it was the first day that I could tolerate sitting outside on a bench with my lunch without worrying about losing one of my smaller digits if I stayed too long. Yeah, it was still a little chilly to sitting outside, maybe I was little enthusiastic but what the hell. It was nice to sit outside and watch the waves glisten and slosh around. And besides it was nice to sit outside and enjoy the view before the bees and flies wake up from their winter nap. I know all creatures have a purpose, but sometimes that their only purpose is to buzz around my head because it drives me nuts.
If This is it?
The signs of the approaching Spring were even more obvious to me this morning when I went on my morning walk. Along the beach the birds were definetly enjoying the warmer tempertures. There were definetly more gulls hanging out enjoying the views along their waterfront property. And to my delight it seemed the majority of the flock of swans were taking their morning nap along the beach. I was surprised to see that instead of standing on one leg most of them were actually lounging on the beach. I guess the sand must have been warmer for a change. I, myself felt that it was nice to feel warm tempertures rather than look at the glistening water and beautiful blue sky with puffy marshmellowy clouds and say to myself I can't wait for warmer tempertures. Don't get me wrong I wish it was warmer still, but after some of the frigid cold days we've had this past winter I'll take what I can get.
March 9, 2007
The Tide is High
This morning I took my usual morning stroll along the water. It's something I enjoy to, it's always nice to get away from my desk. And besides there's something I find soothing about the water. I don't know if I can quite explain it. Although there is something calming about watching the waves crashing against the shore. There's something about that the squishy noise that the waves make that is rather soothing. And there's something special in the way the waves have a glistening sparkly effect when the sun is shining on the water. Say I'm cheezy but something about it makes me smile.
As I was walking back, there was this bird that I see from time to time with a broken wing. The dude or dudette, I'm not really sure which, I've seen from time to time since around the summertime. I feel bad for the bird, from time to time I see him or her hoveling along the water. Often, I wonder how the bird manages to eat. What the gulls do is dive for a what I assume is a shellfish, and then they fly up in the air than throw down on the ground for it to crack. Afterwards they pull the remains out of the shell and eat it. Needless to say it's probably difficult for this poor thing to survive. I guess it shows how nature's survival instincts kick in when it's a question of life or death. Anyway as I was looking at this bird I was wondering how the poor eats, after all when I pass by it starts shivering. But then I look a little closer and I see the bird has put on a decent amount of weight. It is starting to have that stumbling pigeon look. I guess since he can't fly he hasn't been getting his daily cardio workout in. Maybe he needs to start doing jumping jacks or something. Hmmm on second thought it might be rather difficult for him to do jumping jacks with a broken wing.
March 8, 2007
The Sound of Silence
I know why does a day like today make linger for warm spring days. There's no a sign of a flower blooming, or even a new blade of grass peaking through the snow. But today there's a very clear blue sky with a only a few puffy clouds to be seen. And the sun is brightly shining which creates this beautiful glistening glittery effect on the ocean. Something about that reminds me and makes me long for warmer weather. I guess it's just one of things that can't quite be explained.
On the other hand, there's this quite beauty of one the last cold wintery days. There's this quiet understated beauty with no activity aside from the gulls on the ocean, with not even a boat on the horizon. There something serenily beautiful about snow on the rocks and the sand. And you can't help but smile when you se little web footprints in the snow.
