A Horse With No Name

Disclaimer: There is no purpose to the title, this blog has nothing to with horses. Or even the desert or rain like the song is about. In fact I don't think I've ever seen to the desert. I've seen rain, but why the hell would I want to blog about rain? I mean no offense to people that love to blog about the rain.

Now I guess I'm supposed to pick some type of topic or something, I guess. To be honest I really didn't have one in mind. It's friday afternoon, I'm bored of work, my boss has left for the day, so I figured why not write a blog. After all why not, when the cat's away don't the mice play? Hmmm I guess a lot of my blogs lately have been about dating and relationships. I guess the whole dating and relationships thing has been on my mind a lot lately. How could it not be, after all I'm finally at a point where the all the loose ends of my marriage have be tied. I know that I still have id still in the wrong name, but after all I still have things like a credit card and a cable bill that I never changed from the first time around.

The even bigger question are my emotional loose ends tied up. And let's face it that's not an easy question to answer, how do you know when you are trully ready for a new relationship. And I'm not talking about about casual dating, you know a drink, dinner, a movie here and there. Which by the way adds up and with the right person can add up and very easily become a relationship. So therefore those emotional loose ends are now an issue.

I guess the reason that I'm so obsessive over it is that there is part of me that still looks at my divorce as baggage. To be honest I don't know why I do, I know my marriage was definetly a learning experience. Let's face it I learned a lot about myself and what I want out of relationship. And it's not like I hold bad feelings towards relationships or have a hatred against men. I could never imagine switching teams, the thought of a relationship with a woman disturbs. Yes there is the equipment issue, I'm sorry lesbian sex just doesn't do anything for me. But it's more than, let's face it women can be catty bitches at times, I know I can be one from time to time. And no it doesn't correlate with my time of the month, some women just use that as an excuse to be a bitch. I may be making some enemies with this blog maybe I should get off my tagent, back to my discussion on relationships. Maybe now that I know the type of person that I want to share a relationship with (See my earlier blog. Hey advertising never hurts. And besides I couldn't beat the price, who can beat free?) maybe it's not that I'm not ready for a relationship but that I'm not ready for a relationship with just anyone. After all I already did the opposites attract thing, maybe it's time I did the similarities last thing. Maybe I don't need to find him, but just the rock that he's hiding under.