November 7, 2006

My first blog

Being that this is my first blog here, I thinking that some background info would be a good idea. Basically I'm newly single, after seperating from my almost ex-husband a little less than a year again. Becoming single again after being married for over three years and in a relationship for seven was quite the adjustment to say the least.

But after almost a year I must say that i'm pretty happy with the adjustment. The relationship just wasn't meant to be, and I simply wasn't getting back what I put in. I just married the wrong man for me, and I'm glad that I found out now rather than later down the road.

The hardest part about being single again and now that I'm ready to start thinking about dating again is giving up independence. Because believe it or not even though I was married I was emotionally single for a long time. In way we were living more like roommates than husband and wife. It's gonna be hard for me to adjust in a relationship and give someone more than that. Which is totally ironic because that was one of the things that I craved most when I first accepted there were major problems with my marriage. I wanted that deep rooted connection, you know where someone knows what you are thinking with just a glance. Once I realized that I could never have that with him my marriage was over. Now that I'm single again I realize that will be one of the things I will struggle most with. ARGH!

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