Suspicious Minds

Believe me, I know that I spend too much time thinking. Whenever the world around me seems chaotic I retreat inward. It's probably not the best way to handle things, but for some reason it's just the way I've always dealt with things. It seems like anytime I've ever discussed things with people they've always belittled my issues. So instead I've just learned how to deal with things myself, where no one can patronize me. And besides some of things that are going on right now in my life, just seem so unrealistic. Sometimes I just think that I'm suffering from paranoia, or an egomaniac who thinks the whole world revolves around them. I know you are probably wondering why, I feel this way. Because a lot of the events that are taking place in my life right now seem just so far-fetched and ridiculous. If what I suspect is going on, really is well some soap opera writers would pay good money for the plot. So needless to say talking to people about it would be a little nuts because they would tell me I'm paranoid. Maybe my best alternative is to stop thinking about whether or not I'm paranoid start writing this shit down. And sell it to one of those Prime-time soap operas, and make some good money from this crap. Hey it certainly beats paying for therapy.